I swam 5000 yards today. That's 3 miles of following a black line on the bottom of the pool over a period of 1 hour and 48 min. 🏊♀️
I didn't plan on swimming that long. I figured that 3300 (2 miles) would be good enough. My swims are never less than 2400 yards (1.5 miles) and up to 5300. To swim 5000+ takes a certain mindset. I didn't think I had it in me today.
Though I started off sort of slow, things kicked in about halfway. When I got to 3300, I started thinking about something and time sped up a little. By the time I hit 4200 (2.5), I figured that if I was only 800 yards away from my goal of at least one weekly 3+ mile swim, I might as well keep going. I was glad I did. It's another box to check off.
But what if I felt terrible halfway through? Would it be equally OK to change plans and back off?
I can have a hard time being flexible - especially when it comes to training. I was raised with the mindset to set a goal and don't stop until it is achieved no matter what. Anyone with me?
If I downgrade my goal, it feels like I am simply finding an excuse to be lazy. And honestly, that is probably more the case than not.
But is flexibility the evil cousin of commitment? Is it possible to remain flexible to accommodate circumstances and not feel like a cheating fool?
As I've said before, there is an infinitesimally thin line between dedication and obsession. Cross it and you might find yourself falling into the bottomless abyss, never to be seen again.
I do think there is a time and a place to grant ourselves grace to change plans. It should probably not become a habit but more of an exception. Still, sometimes changing plans is the reasonable thing to do.
Anyone feeling me on this? Tell me about a change to a plan you had to make. It can be big or small. In the aftermath, was the change an excuse or legitimate reason?
Geez- life can be so hard to figure out. 🥺
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